Prayers Please

I honestly don't even know how to begin this post. The past week and a half has been such a whirlwind. My grandma, Paula Goswick & "Nanny" to most who know her, was put in the hospital a couple of weeks ago for pneumonia. She was there for 17 days and during that time they found a tumor in her right lower lung. They did a biopsy and we got conformation that the tumor is in fact cancer. She got to go home but went back the next week to do a scan to make sure it had not spread anywhere else. SO this Tuesday we found out that the cancer is isolated to just the one initial tumor they found. That's the good news because they said they could go in and cut it out and be done with it. The bad news is now that she's got some kind of bad infection that they don't know what is and between that and the pneumonia she had she lost a substantial amount of weight. Her lung specialist advised her to not do the surgery because he thinks she will not be strong enough to make it through. She met with the surgeon today and he told her that she's got a 10% chance to pull through the surgery. She asked about doing chemo and apparently it won't do anything but slow it down and again, she's so weak already they think it will only hurt her more. And the doctors have told her if she does nothing that she'd probably have no longer than 30 days. Bottom line is that surgery is her best option and even that is no good.

She's scheduled to have the surgery on the 19th. So I'm asking for some major prayers at this point. She is obviously very scared but knows it's her best chance. I have been really down today but as we were getting things settled down for the night these lyrics popped in my head. "Never underestimate my Jesus. When the world around you crumbles He will be strong, He will be strong. I think I can't, but I think you can I think you can." I know God is telling me that He is bigger than even this cancer. Human nature makes that hard to see right now. I want what is best for my Nanny. I know that if she is in Heaven that she will be happy and in a MUCH better place than where I will be. But selfishly I want her here. Also please pray for my mom. (My Nanny is my mom's mom...) She is having to be so strong for my grandma right now but she is still hurting. They are very close, they talk everyday. So I know how hard this really is on her. I'm sorry if this is kind of jumbled together and in incomplete thoughts...but that's just how my mind is working right now. God IS good, He has a much bigger plan than I can see right now...I just have to trust in that.